Faith during a trail

Faith During a Trail.

         Faith - 1. Complete Trust or Confidence in someone or something.

                    2. Strong belief in God or in the doctrines of a religion, based on spiritual apprehension rather then proof.

 

          So when someone has a "trail" they automatically blame someone or something else. Why? Many people do not want to take responsibility for their actions. So first to survive a trail or tough time, You must look inward and see what is what. You could have a lack of faith in anything, You may not believe in God, But you may have lost faith in what moves you on a daily basis. For me and my family it is our faith in Jesus Christ and Heavenly Father that moves us. 

          

           Many things have tested my faith in the short 38 years I have been on this Earth. From my own mistakes, to conditions I have no control over. My current "trail" is long term pain. I suffer from Chronic Migraine's it is a broad term, but it is all I can tell you. I am awaiting for Botox Treatment on the 26th of February. Now I have had Botox before, about 3 treatments. I stopped because it was very expensive co-pay. I stopped just before Christmas of 2012. It has been over a year since I have had them and it has been a terrible year. I have been in bed 4-5 days per week in bed. That alone has not helped me. I have been battling with depression since that time also. Luckily I found a Doctor that was willing to help and gave me Hydro. Now that was a band-aid over a gushing bleeder.

           

           This time I have found solace in my faith. We have been compared to Job and his family. We keep attending church meeting and try very hard to install a good belief system for my children. That is the most important thing for me to concentrate on, not becoming a CEO or even an employee. I am working on becoming a Father that my children and My father can be proud of. I work hard on that, Many people do not understand my infliction or situation, but they judge me nonetheless. I have heard the whispers and the rumors. It hurts. I would trade anyone for a bad day of work for a normal day of pain. I am not a lazy man I was not raised like that. I am a hard worker and have been since I was old enough to hold a broom at a construction site. My faith is for me and my family. We decide to believe in God and our Faith. I am not asking you to understand, but to respect that.

Keep n Keeping on

Mr. Crossrds