This is How WE do it!

This is How WE do it!

           Do you remember the song from 1996? Let's see I was in Sheridan Wyoming and Detroit Lakes Minnesota serving my mission. So I missed a lot of the music during that time. I served with vigor until November 4th. That day I fell apart. I suffered through things and did not want to serve. I was being obedient to the mission president. I stayed, but it was destructive to myself. I destroyed my spirituality in a matter of 2 months. I returned home on Jan. 14th 1997 I was not in the right place I wanted to hide. Everywhere I looked I saw all my mistakes I have made. I saw a brother I could never hold. I saw parents that couldn't look at me. I left a month later to Utah. I wanted to fill a hole in my heart. I tried to find that with an eternal companion. I struggled to even go to church. I was still angry! 

          

            In 1998 I met my wife. By then my heart had softened enough to love. I still had a dark hole. I still felt as an outsider. We moved to California, in 2000 with a newborn in tow. I felt comfortable, loved it, but my wife was miserable. She could not get used to the heat or living in California. So soon after my Grandmother passed (brought up everything I was hiding). We moved to West Jordan, Utah. There my wife was happy, but I was still searching. I could not find an anchor there, I had no "blood" family there. We lived for a bit with in-laws and then moved to an apartment we could afford in Downtown SLC. Shortly after that I was laid-off. I found a new job in Cedar City, Utah. It was a forklift job I was great at it, but didn't last long. I even work the graveyard shift at a gas station, Crap job by every means. Then I met a man that wold change my life. He took me out in his rig and taught me how to drive the "large Cars'. In 2004 I got my CDL I could drive the rigs. Shortly after we moved to SLC area again, it was closer to terminal so I could see my family more and more. 

          So a little history to come to this point. I have filled my hole. I have found that my hole was nothing more then not listening to my Father in Heaven and Jesus Christ. I reaffirm to you as you read this my love in Christ. 

Thank you for reading 

Mr. Crossrds