Visiting a Grave!

Visiting a Graveside.

      A week ago I went and visited my brothers graveside. Now the last time I visited it was in 2006 or so. I have always been angry with him dieing. I was even anger the morning as I got ready to head down to Rose Hills. I was going through my head of the plans we have made to do after I returned my mission. I was really upset! We had plans to do trips on motorcycles and to attend LDS temples. I never understood why I was not able to return home for his funeral. I was in Detroit Lakes MN. When I received the phone call from my mother on the morn of November 4th 1996. I do not remember much for about a year, I have either blocked it out or just do not care to bring it up. I returned home on January 14th 1997. I was lost, I was confused, I was angry. More and more I was angry. I did okay until I had time to think of all the things that could have been? By doing that it I made myself Angrier and angrier. I was not in a healthy frame of mind in my head, It was hugely dark place in my mind. 

      I knelt on my knees and prayed to my Brother Greg. I asked for his forgiveness and for him to help me find a new direction in my life. You see at my last Doctors appointment it came to light that I will only expect 50% improvement in the regularity I get migraines. It is a Far better improvement, but still makes it tough to hold down a gainfully employment. So that was a kick in the stomach. I will spend the next chapter in my life becoming a scholar in religious studies to hopefully fight the anti-christian movement currently encompassing the world. I know my brother lives and I will meet him and my sister once again. I knew them in the pre-life and I will know them in the next life. I know the Joseph Smith was called by God and Jesus Christ, to restore the gospel to its glory of this day. I know that Christ once and still leads his church. He was resurrected and lived once again. He is my savior, my brother and he will rise once again. I know that a modern day prophet is on this earth today. He leads with guidance from our Lord and His Father.

    I appreciate all those that read this. I do not expect you to have the same beliefs of me, but I do expect you to respect me enough to let me have my beliefs even if you do not agree.

Thank you For reading 

Mr. Crossrds.