My life in Music.

My life in Music.

           How can Music be in ones life? Memories, That is how! Many memories are tied to songs. Songs that are released to this day can be tied to memories of years gone by. Tha Crossroads by Bone-Thugs and Harmony brings me to tears for those I have lost. That song was released in 1996 the same year I lost my brother. It talks about meeting at the Crossroad between Heaven and Earth. Many people go to that place and are met by people that they have lost years before. So every time I hear that song I think of my brother there waiting for me. He is always missed. I recently found a sister I thought didn't want anything to do with me. Found out it was other issues that were hurting that relationship. I have a brother that doesn't want anything to do with Family. A niece that has no respect for family or herself she has been on a path of entitlement (i deserve everything). She thinks that she shouldn't have to work for anything, It should be handed to her. Now maybe that is Mine and My brothers fault. We spoiled the crap out of her. Even if she says she doesn't remember it. Well I do, I have those memories and they are all tied to songs. It is time for family to leave the state of California and move away. To a more stable State. California is ruled by people that do not care about a persons self worth, Just about everyone being equal. Sorry people it doesn't work that way. Reason for social classes is for people to work towards something. If you want to be rich and not have to worry about money then make yourself better and hire able to what a corporation wants. You want to own your own business and make your own path, Then find the path that gets you to that point. I am not well "educated". But that does not mean I am not smart. One thing that many people do not know about me is my brain. I am able to fix things and ticker and remember that years later. I haven't driven a big rig in seven years but I know how to do it. I know how to read schematics and mechanical drawings. I always had great potential for the person I had worked with. I move fast inside a company and I learn fast. I am ideal employee for anyone. I will go out of my way to make sure your company comes second (sorry family first).

I can do any job I put myself in front of. the only thing that keep me from that is the chronic pain. So write now I have been working on becoming a better Father, Husband, and Son. I have put Faith, Jesus and My family first since I got sick. I do so in order to get the strength I need to make it through some days. My pain has been coming in harder and lasting longer. That means I spend more time just feeling crappy. I do not wish this on my worst enemy. I want my family to be proud of me. I do not like the "how can I help" looks I get. People do not ask me to go with them because of fear something will happen and not be able to do things.

Thank you for reading

Mr. Crossrds