Mormons are not the same

Mormons are not the same.

     Mormons are not a typical religion. We are very different then many people like. Come to think of it we have more in common with minorities then we think. Have you ever been discriminated because of the color or preference of sexuality? Well take this in kind, Mormons outside are (outside of Utah) a minority in most communities. My dear father has been pushed out of jobs because he is Mormon! Trust me it can happen. That experience has brought me to think and grow upon the similarities of me and other minorities. Now because I may not believe the same as you I still do understand what it is liked to be pushed out of circles and to even have people not want their kids to be around you just because of what you believe.
 
      For many years living in Utah I have always felt like and outsider, very few people have made me feel like I didn't belong. Even in my own religion i have been excused of a few callings when I have tried to follow the guidelines set in the guide books. Being from California I have been cast aside because I may be more relaxed and let things slide. My conclusion is in Utah there are a lot of Mormons, but only have a few have been converted to the religion. You see growing up doing the motions and not really learning the teachings are taught. Forcing your children (or Bribing) to attend seminary or go on missions will result in a monetary reward. Now when you just follow you do not get the full blessings of what is being taught. Following just because and following because you choose to are too different mindsets.

      I have taken ownership of my beliefs and my family since I was 23 years old. Even though I grew up in the LDS church I was a black sheep of sorts. I questioned everything from my leaders and parents it has led to many of fights and even a period where I was not aloud in the house. I decided to go on a mission at the ripe age of 20 years old. I returned 10 months after I arrived to the MTC. I learned a lot on my mission. It was the hardest and cruelest time in my life. I was shot at, doors slammed in my face, yelled at, even cussed out at. But my life changed along with my families on November 4th 1996. My brother was killed on his way to work. It is not right to see a brother at the age of 23 years old be buried. I grew to more hatred and anger then anytime in my life. My mission president would not allow me to leave, My other younger brother's mission president let him go. So I grew very angry with my Leader and anything to deal with the church. I think that is my animosity toward Utah Mormons. Most members in the church and in the state of Utah, Have a stigma from living here.

    I am no longer angry, I went to my brothers graveside and I was ready to yell and scream at him. I found solace, I found love, I found my Faith.
Thank you  for reading
Mr. Crossrds

New Life

New Life

      What to write? What do I want to tell someone? Does anyone really read this? I am just a father trying to deal with normal and abnormal things in my and my families life. I try not to lie, I work really hard on being honest and I try to instill this trait into my children. My father is my hero, along with my brother Rod, They are who I look up to outside of my eternal wife and Christ. 

       Did you know I am a racist, A$$hole, and a Mofo? I have been called many things in my 38 years of life. A lot of them came as I drove rigs across this country. I am proud of the man I have become, I carry a LDS temple recommend in my pocket and I AM WORTHY TO USE IT!!!! I am not afraid to talk about my religious beliefs, but I will not push you to convert. Many of our beliefs are common sense and can be found in many things. I believe that God and Jesus Christ lives and even directs the people on this Earth through a Modern day Prophet, Thomas S. Monson. My struggles are in the pain department. I can not tell you when I will feel good and when I will feel terrible, trust me if I could it would make things so much easier. The reason I do not attend weekly church meetings is because of the lights, the times I feel good enough to get 20 minutes of sacrament meeting I go, but if I feel the slightest itching of pain just less embarrassing to stay home. I know that is pride. 

        I was got into a argument with a person saying that my infliction isn't as bad as hers. Well first off i am not going to tell you that what you are going through is anything less then what I am going through. Now I will stand up and say you might know what a migraine is like, but you do not understand my infliction, Each person handles their "rocks" differently. It is said that the Lord only gives you what you can handle. Christ want you to learn so you can return to them in the heavens. I try as a student of Christ and a Teacher for my children to lead a righteous life. I am far from perfect, but I work on it. You know the ladder of perfection has many broken rungs. You will grab one and fall a few rungs down, then you will climb up higher. The thing we need to learn is not to repeat our mistakes. We need to keep our eye to the glory of Jesus Christ and Heavenly Father. You will be blessed with great prosperity and riches beyond your dreams.

Thank you for reading

Mr. Crossrds

We shall not take Liberty for granted

Liberty

Just want you to think about the early years of this great Nation.
Read this.
Col. Harry Burwell: This is not a war for the independence of one or two colonies, but for the independence of one nation.
Capt. Wilkins: Tell me, Colonel, what nation is that?
Mr. Howard: An American nation!
Capt. Wilkins: There is no such nation, and to speak of one is treason.
Mr. Howard: We ARE citizens of an American nation! And our rights are being threatened by a tyrant three thousand miles away!
Benjamin Martin: Would you tell me please, Mr. Howard, why should I trade one tyrant three thousand miles away for three thousand tyrants one mile away? An elected legislature can trample a man's rights as easily as a king can.
Col. Harry Burwell: Captain Martin, I understood you to be a patriot.
Benjamin Martin: If you mean by patriot, am I angry about taxation without representation, well, yes I am. Should the American colonies govern themselves independently? I believe that they can, and they should. But if you are asking me, am I willing to go to war with England? Well, then the answer is most definitely NO!

Now this is a script from the Patriot. A Movie about the revolutionary war. When the America's were new and King George decided to tax us.
Well this day and age we have Cattle being seized, Taxes being levied on the backs of our Grand children and Great grandchildren. The amount of debt and the vast growing of federal government is out of control. this isn't a liberal, or conservative issue it is the greed of Washington D.C. that has led us to this. It is time to stand and take to your voting booths. we need to send a message, IF YOU DO NOT DO WHAT YOU HAVE BEEN HIRED TO DO THEN IT IS TIME TO GO! Stop voting for incumbents, put in some fresh blood. we need to stand up for our children and the generations of children to come. WE NEED TO PRAISE OUR HEAVENLY FATHER AND BEG FOR FORGIVENESS. I see a desolate future if we do not return to our worships and praise of the almighty god. repent of our sins and let the Lord hold you up.

My friends I posted this on Facebook. I just wanted to share on here. We need to stand against those that are lawless in charge of the law. It is time to be an OUTLAW

Thank you for reading

Mr. Crossrds

A letter to my Daughters

A Letter to my Daughters

Dear My little girls

        You are perfect, You are loved by me forever and through all eternity. You are a princess and will become a queen in the Lords Kingdom. Do not settle for less then what you are worth! You are worth a lot! I could never trade you for the coolest slammed Dodge Ram 3500 Dually with a cummins.

        You are a great a wonderful young woman. You are a daughter of God. I was given the blessing of having you as my children. I know one day I will see my brother again and I will return unto the glory of out Lord. You need to remember the little things I taught you. please think of the good things the love I always tried to show you. Please remember the way I loved your Mother. She was my queen and my everything. You deserve no less then that. You are all worth the world and NO MAN SHALL TREAT YOU ANY LESS.

         You are Princesses now but in the future you will become a queen in the Lords time. The Lord loves you and you learn that service is the center of the world. You deserve no less then what the Lord has given your mother, As a matter of fact you deserve more. Your Mother and I never wanted anything less then what we have given you. We would have given you the world if we had the means.

          I will leave you with a saying from my Grandmother Dorthy Wynkoop "keep a smile on your face, that way no one know what the hell you are up to"

          Always remember that I love you, the Lord loves you and we will always be here for you. I love you and will always love you.

I love you

Grady Lundeen.

I am white and Have Rhythm

I am white and Have Rhythm

Now that alone should make for an interesting topic to share. I love music, All kinds from Snoop Dog to Merrill Osmond, From Show tunes To Speed metal. I feel the deep bass in my bones. I do not have a problem crying when a song connects on a deep level. I once wrote the reason I am called Crossrds. It is a PlayStation Network gamer tag. It also is in reference to a song that was released soon around the time of my brothers death. Now I have written of this life changing event. I have spent many years hiding from what I have become I am now the oldest son in our mortal lives. I never asked for that I always enjoyed being unnoticed and skating under the radar. I know no one asked me to replace my brother and it took many years of thinking I was in his shadow and should live as he lived. I found out that is made my mind in turmoil when I would feel I wasn't living up to that expectation. I found out one thing I AM GRADY LUNDEEN AND I ONLY NEED TO BE THE MAN I AM. That is what I found out. I am me and only me can bring joy to my life. So I am working on me. I never cared about rumors about me. I just let them slide, as I have grown up things start to hurt, like when people whisper things like " he doesn't look sick" "He is just lazy" or when someone attacks my religion or church. I AM MORMON. get over it, if you don't like it oh well move on, I have. 

I do not care of offending people. I am me, the Lord has given me my trails and from those I have become who I am. I have a heart and willing to serve everyone. I will respect you if you respect me. So how do I have Rhythm. Rhythm is all things as is love.

thanks for reading 

Mr. Crossrds

MIsconception

Understanding Misconception

When you read the title what did you think? Maybe the common Mormon one, That we have a plethora of wives? Well it isn't even along those lines. Today I am writing about the common misconception of people on assistance and disabled.  I am both and by looking at me you can not tell. By the time I am well enough to go out in public I had rested for days to get to that point.

About 5 Years ago my wife and I made a decision, That she would go to school and get a degree that will provide for us a good comfortable life. She went back to school starting from scratch, She decided on a career that will do that, A Nurse. Plain and simple we would need government so we applied for Food stamps and medicaid. Those were the only ones we felt we would need. The rest assistance would come from our church and family. That is all the assistance we have been on since I have got sick.

Now the misconception is that "if you are on assistance you are LAZY" I am not, I started to work when I was old enough to hold a broom. I worked as much as I could. whether going to school and working. I did not ask for the health problems I have, nor do I wish them on anyone. This is my rocks to bear with the Lord Jesus Christ helping me. Our little family is almost done with our plan. My wife is almost done with school, May 2015 she will be done and ready to enter the workforce. 

We will be off of assistance. So next time you want to post a remark about someone on assistance think about what you are doing. The people that get the most news are those abusing the system, But not everyone is that way.
So before you post please think. I am not the only one going through this, my sister and her husband are just starting to begin their journey. There is always hope as to return to the workforce, but when you need the help it is there. I love you sister. Please keep your heart to the glory of God and you will be able to hold your head high. Love you
Thank you for reading
Mr. Crossrds

This is How WE do it!

This is How WE do it!

           Do you remember the song from 1996? Let's see I was in Sheridan Wyoming and Detroit Lakes Minnesota serving my mission. So I missed a lot of the music during that time. I served with vigor until November 4th. That day I fell apart. I suffered through things and did not want to serve. I was being obedient to the mission president. I stayed, but it was destructive to myself. I destroyed my spirituality in a matter of 2 months. I returned home on Jan. 14th 1997 I was not in the right place I wanted to hide. Everywhere I looked I saw all my mistakes I have made. I saw a brother I could never hold. I saw parents that couldn't look at me. I left a month later to Utah. I wanted to fill a hole in my heart. I tried to find that with an eternal companion. I struggled to even go to church. I was still angry! 

          

            In 1998 I met my wife. By then my heart had softened enough to love. I still had a dark hole. I still felt as an outsider. We moved to California, in 2000 with a newborn in tow. I felt comfortable, loved it, but my wife was miserable. She could not get used to the heat or living in California. So soon after my Grandmother passed (brought up everything I was hiding). We moved to West Jordan, Utah. There my wife was happy, but I was still searching. I could not find an anchor there, I had no "blood" family there. We lived for a bit with in-laws and then moved to an apartment we could afford in Downtown SLC. Shortly after that I was laid-off. I found a new job in Cedar City, Utah. It was a forklift job I was great at it, but didn't last long. I even work the graveyard shift at a gas station, Crap job by every means. Then I met a man that wold change my life. He took me out in his rig and taught me how to drive the "large Cars'. In 2004 I got my CDL I could drive the rigs. Shortly after we moved to SLC area again, it was closer to terminal so I could see my family more and more. 

          So a little history to come to this point. I have filled my hole. I have found that my hole was nothing more then not listening to my Father in Heaven and Jesus Christ. I reaffirm to you as you read this my love in Christ. 

Thank you for reading 

Mr. Crossrds

Visiting a Grave!

Visiting a Graveside.

      A week ago I went and visited my brothers graveside. Now the last time I visited it was in 2006 or so. I have always been angry with him dieing. I was even anger the morning as I got ready to head down to Rose Hills. I was going through my head of the plans we have made to do after I returned my mission. I was really upset! We had plans to do trips on motorcycles and to attend LDS temples. I never understood why I was not able to return home for his funeral. I was in Detroit Lakes MN. When I received the phone call from my mother on the morn of November 4th 1996. I do not remember much for about a year, I have either blocked it out or just do not care to bring it up. I returned home on January 14th 1997. I was lost, I was confused, I was angry. More and more I was angry. I did okay until I had time to think of all the things that could have been? By doing that it I made myself Angrier and angrier. I was not in a healthy frame of mind in my head, It was hugely dark place in my mind. 

      I knelt on my knees and prayed to my Brother Greg. I asked for his forgiveness and for him to help me find a new direction in my life. You see at my last Doctors appointment it came to light that I will only expect 50% improvement in the regularity I get migraines. It is a Far better improvement, but still makes it tough to hold down a gainfully employment. So that was a kick in the stomach. I will spend the next chapter in my life becoming a scholar in religious studies to hopefully fight the anti-christian movement currently encompassing the world. I know my brother lives and I will meet him and my sister once again. I knew them in the pre-life and I will know them in the next life. I know the Joseph Smith was called by God and Jesus Christ, to restore the gospel to its glory of this day. I know that Christ once and still leads his church. He was resurrected and lived once again. He is my savior, my brother and he will rise once again. I know that a modern day prophet is on this earth today. He leads with guidance from our Lord and His Father.

    I appreciate all those that read this. I do not expect you to have the same beliefs of me, but I do expect you to respect me enough to let me have my beliefs even if you do not agree.

Thank you For reading 

Mr. Crossrds.

A good day to CRY!

A Good Day to Cry!

          Why is today a good day to cry? Well nothing in particulare in the date of February 25th 2014. You can say that it is six months to my birthday. Nothing comes to mind why one should cry, but any day is a good day to cry when it is warranted. Now I grew up and you were called a sissy or mama's boy if you were seen crying, Phrases like "walk it off" "no blood no pain". They were used with udder regularity one would think it was a laxative. I am not a scholar I am a guy going through life with a constant pain. My pain gets to the point that I can be seen crying.

         Why do I have this pain, I do not know. I wish I have been given answers, but my doctors are complex-ed into what is really going on. Now do I cry every day? HELL NO! I am a man of course there is some pride inside me. I cherish the days when my pain is just mild. I get about one per week. The rest of the time I am either in bed or on the couch.

         Tomorrow starts a new round of botox. Now this will not be a cure all more of a control, better and less addicting then Hydro. I am trying to get through and be a good father. That is my goal to be a good father. So as you lay down to night think of the things that should have gotten done that day. As you think of your children and loved one. Cry unto your Lord and he shall answer.

Thank you for reading

Mr. Crossrds

Living in Pain

Living in Pain.

     Someone has asked how is it to live in daily pain? Well that is not an easy question to answer. let me ask you how do you get through life's problems? My instance and circumstances are given to me because I can handle them. My problem is no worse then what you may be going through. I am saying this because I am told my health care problems are incurable. I will suffer from migraine's the rest of my life. My sister will live with her health problems rest of her life and so on and so on. I will try not to take anything away from your problem as you try not to take anything away from my situation. Sometimes as I post something on Face book, or Twitter I am just venting I just want you to listen, say your sorry and move on. I will do the same when you feel over whelmed. We will work together to help each other get through life. 

      I have many things and many stories that have made me into who I am this day. I was not always a goody - goody Mormon boy. High school was 20 years ago and many things have changed since then. I am married (at 23) I have four great kids, A dog, and a cat. I love to draw and I love to help people. I have a gift of speech. I can speak on the fly in front of any size crowd. You may have some of the same gifts as I do. I have an appreciation for everything and I will let a person use me once. That is all I can afford to allow people to walk over me. I will stop everything I am in the middle of and come to aid of family. I have two cousins (by blood). I have more but we have not been in contact for many years and some do not acknowledge me or my family. I have chronic migraine's I start Botox on the 26th and that will give me fewer and more "better" days in the future. I have a niece that will not accept an apology. If you have become a person I can trust and let me tell you of all my "sh!t" you will be in a small circle.

I am me and nothing can change that. I believe in God and the restoration of his church on this earth. I know that he will return and redeem this earth as his. We may all believe in something, but my Faith in Jesus Christ gets me through each day. 

Thank you For reading

Mr. Crossrds

Faith during a trail

Faith During a Trail.

         Faith - 1. Complete Trust or Confidence in someone or something.

                    2. Strong belief in God or in the doctrines of a religion, based on spiritual apprehension rather then proof.

 

          So when someone has a "trail" they automatically blame someone or something else. Why? Many people do not want to take responsibility for their actions. So first to survive a trail or tough time, You must look inward and see what is what. You could have a lack of faith in anything, You may not believe in God, But you may have lost faith in what moves you on a daily basis. For me and my family it is our faith in Jesus Christ and Heavenly Father that moves us. 

          

           Many things have tested my faith in the short 38 years I have been on this Earth. From my own mistakes, to conditions I have no control over. My current "trail" is long term pain. I suffer from Chronic Migraine's it is a broad term, but it is all I can tell you. I am awaiting for Botox Treatment on the 26th of February. Now I have had Botox before, about 3 treatments. I stopped because it was very expensive co-pay. I stopped just before Christmas of 2012. It has been over a year since I have had them and it has been a terrible year. I have been in bed 4-5 days per week in bed. That alone has not helped me. I have been battling with depression since that time also. Luckily I found a Doctor that was willing to help and gave me Hydro. Now that was a band-aid over a gushing bleeder.

           

           This time I have found solace in my faith. We have been compared to Job and his family. We keep attending church meeting and try very hard to install a good belief system for my children. That is the most important thing for me to concentrate on, not becoming a CEO or even an employee. I am working on becoming a Father that my children and My father can be proud of. I work hard on that, Many people do not understand my infliction or situation, but they judge me nonetheless. I have heard the whispers and the rumors. It hurts. I would trade anyone for a bad day of work for a normal day of pain. I am not a lazy man I was not raised like that. I am a hard worker and have been since I was old enough to hold a broom at a construction site. My faith is for me and my family. We decide to believe in God and our Faith. I am not asking you to understand, but to respect that.

Keep n Keeping on

Mr. Crossrds

Looking for inspiration

Looking for Inspiration

         So I have long hair, not to long I can pull it in a pony tail, the sides are shaved so it is all on top. Today a friend of my wife was surprised to find out I had not tattoos. She figured I had them since I admire the art work. Now many people might think tattoos, music, or language. That you would not be able to find inspiration in those things. I think it is all how you look at things if you look at it to be negative then all you will see is the negatives. You look for the inspiration and you will find what maybe was the true message of the author. Now many things can be construed to what any individual wants it to be. Take scriptures for many years they were used to control and manipulate people that trusted their clergy. That led to a revolt for people to learn the truth. 

         We believe the Bible to be the word of God as far as it is translated correctly; we also believe the Book of Mormon to be the word of God.

         That is the eighth article of faith in the LDS faith. So we believe in the Holy scriptures as the Bible, Book of Mormon. That gives us two accounts of the teaching of Jesus Christ. Now i believe in Christ was a man far beyond "Jewish Carpenter Zombie". 

           As far as man controlling people through the faith of the people whom listen to the person. That has been done for thousands of years and still in use to this very day. A person that is not controlling will teach you and ask you to make up your own mind on what was taught. Not force it down ones throat or manipulate the teaching for one's personal devices and goals. I am a rebel at heart and I question everything that is put forth to me. I believe in Christ because I feel it is right and he is guiding his church as he did in old times through the Holy Ghost and inspiration to men called by God and set apart by the laying on of hands.

            I am not asking you to change I am asking you to love everyone for whom they are and not what they believe in or do. So please accept and love one another as he has loved us. Charity is the purest form of love on this planet as any human kind can partake in. So if you would like to be charitable please be charitable to your neighbor and your self.

Thank you for reading

Mr. Crossrds

Honesty

Honesty

        Honesty - everyone has a definition of that word. Some people like to be honest in only what they say versus what they do. I have always strive to be honest with myself, then it is easier to be honest with others. I am not saying I am 100% honest I just try to be. I learned a lot about honesty from my parents, who just celebrated 46 years of marriage, whom strive to be honest with everyone that they came in contact with. Whether it was in church on Sunday or work Monday to Friday. Now at times this honesty has gotten them into trouble. 

        I always strive to be honest. The last few month of my working life I was a trainer. Now I always tried to teach him how to be honest, but a common practice is to lie on your logbooks. Now i showed him what I did, for the most part it was 100% legal, but you had to fudge things a little bit to make deadlines and laws. Well because of this Practice, common among all drivers and trucking companies. The government has taken the guess work out of it and most truck and drivers use a digital logbook. I am glad it is in place, it now puts the pressure on dispatch, load planners, and the loaders to get it right not the driver to make up the time. 

          I am going to be honest in this post and ask for some help. I see many people on Kick starter and other site trying to raise money to pay medical bills. Now to me it seems a little off-pudding to be self-promoting oneself to help with your needs. Now I am not saying that they do not need the help, but to promote oneself is just off to me. Now would I love a fund raiser for me? Hell yeah who wouldn't. Could I use my blog to promote my problems and ask for help? I do not know the answer to that. I would think that I have friends that know of the situation and will do one for me, but I would never ask for it.

          What would you do with the money raised? Well I would buy a Suburban that is from this century and a nice down payment on a house. That is what I would do with it. Nothing fancy, just some needs that we have taken care but could use upgrades. So honesty is in the eye of the beholder.

           One day I will die and people will say. Well I know he was an A**hole but he was a honest A**hole.

Thank you for Reading

Mr. Crossrds

Hatred, Darkness and the Love of Jesus Christ

Hatred, Darkness and the Love of Jesus Christ

        2nd Corinthians 5 

                13 - For whether we be beside ourselves, it is to God, or whether we be sober, it is for your cause

                14 - For the love of Christ constraineth us; because we thus judge, that is one died for all, then were all dead

            I am starting this off with a scripture from the bible. You do not have to read this, you can be ignorant enough not to accept someone Else's view. Every christian is told that they must accept "us", Grow the f*** up! so this "church" doesn't like that I am a homosexual. So what everyone does NOT have to agree with you. So you do NOT need to picket them.

            Jesus Christ has taught that we must love one another. That is very true, we can love and not agree with what you are doing. Yes it is as simple as that. We all need to gather together and love one another vs. the hatred you see. I blame the news media and social networks for all the darkness in this world. So in Utah they have struck down polygamy and the definition of marriage. Which is funny how when Utah was trying to become a state, The federal government made the state put those definitions in the constitution. The vote in 2004 was nothing more then a clearer version of that definition. 

           Nowadays you do not like something you can sue them to get your way. We live in a country that is a democracy. Basically that means that if a majority votes for one thing then it becomes law. So if the majority of the people vote for something that I do not agree with I must stand by and live with it (gun Controls). Lately it has been lets do the vote, protest people that supported the opposite view, and then sue the state or federal government so I can get my way. We have a darkness in the U.S.A that is the minority has more power then a majority vote. 

           I was watching a rant on face book become insane in the comments section. Social media like Face book and Twitter has ruined manners. Plain and simple if you do not believe in something a "friend" posts and then you argue that point to the point of ignorance and stupidity. Everyone has the RIGHT to voice their opinion. Now you can discuss this without hateful words. I do not agree with everything my brother has done, but I still love him and pray for the day i can embrace him once again. He has chosen a path that has brought him mortal pleasures and forgone the spirit of the Lord. 

          I have only a few cousins, even fewer i see on a regular basis. My dearest memories contain a cousin that now is half around the world. I love him I saw him a few years ago at his sister wedding, now he is a drinker. I do not drink, Have had a few times in high school, and that does not stop me from loving him. My closest friend from trucking days drinks, nope still love him. I have a many of friends that post pictures of the few people that are abusing the government system of welfare. Now I usually do not post remarks about it, but they need to realize that majority of those people are hard workers and are working to get off programs like food stamps. In 2007 I could no longer work, in 2008 and 2009 I was categorized as 100% disabled. We got on Food Stamps and used help from our parents and Church. 2009 my dear wife went back to school. now she could have gone back to work and work a menial job, but we chose a different path for the betterment of our little family. I would stay home take care of what I can. She would go to school and become a nurse. Now it is 2014 and we have 1.5 years left and she will walk away with 4 degrees, AS, LPN, RN, and BSN. Now she will go out to the world ready to work and make a wage, Now we are very grateful for the government programs. Now you might be reading and wonder what this all has to do with my title, It does work, Just wait. 

           I was taught to love one another and to avoid hatred and Darkness by many, but most importantly my Mother and Father, and Two great "parents" that took me in for my senior year of high school. Now i feel the hatred come across me when the darkness prevails over me. In the winter I have very hard time when the temp drops below 20* and i am in greater pain. I am working my way back to being a better Father and supporting my kids as I and my heavenly Father sees fit. I will love my children for all of eternity. I will support them, by teaching them to work and to manage their money earned. To pay a tithe to the Lord to support the people that may be in our situation in the future. I love my Lord and I know he only gives me what i can handle. I must be one tough MOFO! Many things have come and gone have made me more and more understand what Jesus Christ and God are trying to teach us while we are on this mortal world. 

          Many will say religion is of the Devil, modern prophets are false. Here is why there is a misinterpretation of that. First you are looking a a religion that is guided by a man that says he is a Prophet. I am in a Church that has a Prophet that will never refer to himself as one, He will be a servant unto the people and unto the Lord. Jesus Christ will always guide you back to him, but he will leave up to you to get there. So through the LOVE of Jesus Christ you shall be saved. There must be opposition in all things. Remember that always. For if you have a good you must have a bad. Even in yourself you will find that you will have a cartoon angel and devil on each side. What wins is the one that you feed the most. For i have chosen to follow Christ, does not make me any better then anyone. You must love one another to understand the truth of what is being taught, and you must be willing to listen to other views. 

If you are reading this then know that even if I do not agree with you does not mean I do not care for or love you.

Thank you for reading this

Love Mr. Crossrds

          

Jan 1st 2014

Jan 1st 2014

        So we have all said Happy New Year, and hope 2014 brings you all what you wish for. 

I hope for same to all my friends, family and readers. May 2014 bring you happiness and love greater then the year before. May you not have to worry about anything that is beyond your control. 

Thank you for reading

Mr. Crossrds